Yesterday I was shocked by a bad news that I had never expected in my whole entire life. The bad news brought tears to my eyes, which I'm not even sure why. For the first time ever in the year 2011, I cried in front of my dearest friends who also didn't expect me to be in such condition. It was a hectic morning, yet a very sorrow day. The news really broke my heart into tiny little pieces. Immediately, my day turned cloudy and grey.
I was a fool to believe that I could possibly had the chance to be it. I was so stupid to believe the words they've said. I should've known my limit, my status, my place beside this person. I was so small to be compared. I was a dummy to be exact.
Most of my friends always said this, "Don't worry, you'll have the chance. Trust me." But yesterday proved them wrong. I had NO chances. I was just another person who's trying to believe something that's so impossible to be expected. I knew this would happened, but I didn't know it was this fast. I was not ready for this.
There was still a little degree of uncertainty inside me, telling me that one day there will be a day when things would go back to you, and the good luck will be on your side. Like the rest of us, we can never be sure about this. All I can say is, what goes around, comes around. I guess this is what I get for hurting someone's feelings. It gets back to me and I deserve this.
Karma can be a little bitchy sometimes.
